25 Random Things

I did this on Facebook awhile ago but had a good time doing it so thought I re post it on my blog. If you do this leave me a comment, because it is a fun way to get to know more about your friends. Here is my list.

1. I am a total freak about not feeling well. Always paranoid that whatever is wrong with me must be because my cancer is coming back.
2. One of my biggest fears is my husband dying. He drives excessivly for work and does tons of dangerous stuff at work so I am always paranoid about it.
3. I admire people who speak their mind. I wish I was more outspoken then I am, it would probably save me a lot of inner frusterations in aftermaths of conversations.
4. I hate it when people feel like everything is a competion needing to have the bigger bader things or did that same thing as you only 100 times cooler. "Top this"
5. I never thought that I would be interested in the health care feild until I became a full time, professional paitent. I can't wait until I have the time/money to get through nursing school.
6. I loathe confrontation. Most times I find it easier to avoid then have an all out tongue lashing with someone unless I am super pissed or hurt.
7. I have always had trouble sleeping. I sit up at night, even when i am exhausted, thinking about anything and everything. It is like I can't turn off my brain. I got the best sleep when doing cancer treatment because I was perscribed Ambien...sweet sweet ambien where are you? :-)
8. I would love to live in CA or somewhere where it is warm....ok, hot, all the time. I become a recluse in the winter time.
9. One of my "yeah right" dreams is to be a songwriter. My dad just gave me a guitar and I am really looking forward to learning how to play it.
10. I love camping with my family. Everyone has the best time....as long as I am warm.
11. Love trail riding with the four wheelers. So fun!
12. I always knew my mom loved me, but realized just how much when she rearranged her existance to revolve around me during treatment. She was with me at every appointment, treatment, follow up, surgery, blood draw, procedure, etc. She made sure I was never alone at anything which I really appriciated after seeing all the patients that face those horrible times and hours upon hours of chemo all alone. Not only did she do this but was at my house several times a week cooking, cleaning, massaging or doing anything else I asked her to do. I will never forget her selfless acts of love during those times. Best. Mom. Ever.
13. I never thought that it would have been possible to love my husband and children more with each day that passes. I love being married to my best friend.
14. I loved cheerleading. (I am a dork) It was so much fun. I was on a professional team the year after I graduated high school. Good times.
15. I am grateful for all my life experiences, good and bad. I wouldn't be the person I am today without them.
16. My faith is the foundation of my life. I don't know where I would be without my testimony of a loving Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ.
17. I wish I was more confident in talking about my faith with others. I feel like people do that ".......oh, your mormom???" thing when they find out. Probably just my own insecurites.
18. Jon and I met at a country bar and love to country swing dance. I wish we could go more often.
19. In the last year I have recently found myself being really sad that we were done having kids. Even though we decided we were done after the twins and before I was diagnosed, something about "having" to be done because of that, really pisses me off.
20. I think I am a great listener. Most times I probably can't offer great advice but usually have a sacastic comment or provide humor to the situation.
21. Most of my favorite show are reality tv. The bachelor, survivor, amazing race...My husband thinks I am a nerd.
22. Who knew being a mom would be so hard. I pray for patience and to be a better parent every day.
23. I have never dieted or exercised regulary. I would really like to start a regular exercise routine.
24. I would love to be a better cook. Since my kids are so pickey we don't really experiment with much, just stick to the basics.
25. I cry when I laugh. I also cry about anything remotely sad on tv or in the movies or real life. Guess I am just sensitive.